Kindred Spirits of the New Age Kind
The interesting thing about my life is that I have many revelations first and then along comes a best-selling author or spiritual guru who confirms what the universe has just shown me – I love that part!
And, I’m glad when they show up to validate those concepts, because they bring it in such a way that there is no doubt. Synchronicity at work I think.
Self Reflection Provides Insight
The latest bit of knowledge I’ve just come to understand is my sense of importance, or up until now, the lack thereof. It seems I have always been the one who picks up, cleans up and protects everyone except me – as if I didn’t exist. Just because no one else would do it and I could.
The problem was there is a sadness that comes with it…a sense of loss…a sense of not knowing who I truly am. In that space I couldn’t tell the difference between which acts stem out of my joy and purpose from the demands others placed on me that I may or may not find joy in. For the longest time I couldn’t figure out how to share some of the love I have for them and hold on to some of that love for me. That took a LOT of deciphering my human nature – and practice.
I Need Love, Too
I’ve spent my whole life up to now feeling like I had to prove myself more and more, just to get some smidgen of respect for what I want, too. It became a battle with no end in sight. Once I realized what I was doing, through self-reflection and meditation, I stopped fighting to be ‘good enough’ for everyone else.
That’s when I got to be myself; just me and the universe holding all the love I have inside to myself for a little while – and it was glorious. I CAN love myself and others, too, but I really HAVE to love myself first…and now I know how to do that. Now the love I have for others is even stronger and I’m finally coming from a place of wholeness and empowerment.
The new mantra that came with this revelation is: I am good enough and I am enough, just as I am right now.
The Pivotal Point
Now I bring that vibrant energy to each day and feel liberated. I’m able to clearly perceive with all of my senses exactly what I think about things of this world. I can go onto social media and share my thoughts without being concerned of how others will judge me. I allow myself to be ‘out there’ as a person with an expanded consciousness, because that’s who I truly am.
Now I can focus on my career dreams, and as a Jill-of-all-trades that was a hard one to nail down. In the end I’m a writer with a passion for human betterment and now that skill has to serve me in a bigger way than it ever has before.
It’s as if my heart has been made whole again; it’s a new start from a new and stronger foundation.